I have been here such a long time, please tell father I
Father, it was difficult to say all one felt, but now I
don't care. I love you. I love you intensely. Father, please speak to me.
I recognise it, Raymond. Have you anything to say for the folk at home?
I have been there today; I spoke to mother. I don't
know if she heard me, but I rather think so. Please tell her this, and kiss her from me.
OJL.-She had a rather vivid dream or vision of you one morning
lately. I don't know if it was a dream.
I feel sure she will see me, but I don't know, because I
am so often near her that I can't say yes or no to any particular time.
OJL.-Raymond, you know it is getting near Christmas now?
I know. I shall be there; keep jolly or it hurts me
horribly. Truly, I know it is difficult, but you must know by now that I am so splendid. I shall never be one instant out
of the house on Christmas Day. (Pause.)
He has gone to fetch some one.-Paul.
(This is the sort of interpolation which frequently
happens. Paul signs his explanatory sentence.)
(K. K. presently said that Raymond had returned, and
expected me to be aware of it.)
I have brought Mr. Myers. He says he doesn't often
come to use this means, but he wants to speak for a moment.
"Get free and go on," be says. "Don't let them trammel
you. Get at it, Lodge." - Myers.
He has gone, tell my father.
(OJL., sotto voce.-What does that mean?)
K.- I haven't an idea.)
Has Myers gone right away?
"I have spoken, but I will speak again, if you keep
quiet (meaning K. K.). Do cease to think, or you are useless. Tell Lodge I can't explain half his boy is to me. I
feel as if I had my own dearly loved son here, yet I know he is only lent to me.
"Pardon me if I rarely use you (to K. K.) ; I can't stand
the way you bother." - Myers.
K. K..-Do you mean the way I get nervous if I am taking a
message from you?
"Yes, I do."
Is Raymond still there?
OJL.-Raymond, do you know we've got that photograph you
spoke of ? Mrs. Cheves sent us it, the mother of Cheves - Captain Cheves, you remember him?
Yes, I know you have the photograph.
OJL.-Yes, and your description of it was very good. And we
have seen the man leaning on you. Was there another one taken of you?
K. K.-'Four,' he says 'four.' Did you say 'four,' Raymond
Yes, I did.
OJL.-Yes, we have those taken of you by yourself, but was
another taken of you with other officers?
I bear, father; I shall look, but I think you have had the
one I want you to have; I have seen you looking at it. I have heard all that father has said. It is
ripping to come like this. Tell my father I have enjoyed it.- Raymond.
OJL.-Before you go, Raymond, I want to ask a serious
question. Have you been let to see Christ?
Father, I shall see him presently. It is not time yet. I am
not ready. But I know he lives, and I know he comes here. All the sad ones see him if no one else can help them. Paul
has seen him: you see he had such a lot of pain, poor chap. I am not expecting to see him yet, father. I shall love
to when it's the time.- Raymond.
Well, we shall be very happy this Christmas I think.
Father, tell mother she has her son with her all day on
Christmas Day. There will be thousands and thousands of us back in the homes on that day, but the horrid part is
that so many of the fellows don't get welcomed. Please keep a place for me. I must go now. Bless you again,
(Paul then wrote a few words to his mother.)